25

Ok...In response to that damn long post that Clo sent..Here are 25 of the things that make me happy, in no specific order..

1)Seeing my mom crack up with my retarded jokes.
2)Hearing my nephew Lucas talk on the phone with me (although I barely understand him)

3)Sunsets
4)Coffee and a cigarette in the morning before brushing my teeth.
5)Traveling
6)Proving people wrong when they underestimate me.
7)Music
8)Beaches
9)Laying down in fresh sheets
10)Drinking wine with wine geeks
11)Laying in my yard at 2 am looking up at the stars
12)Walking around aimlessly in New York
13)Having a friend come over just to talk crap
14)Sex
15)Talking to my siblings (especially la rubia mala esa)
16)Having an interesting conversation with a perfect stranger
17)Cool breezes
18)Seeing my dog Patty go crazy when I get home on the weekends
19)My tattoo
20)Doing crossword puzzles with my dad at 1 am
21)Laughing untill I snort and tears come out of my eyes
22)Hot Showers
23)Going to the gym
24)Dancing untill my feet hurt
25)Writing crazy shit in my blog!

25 of the things that make me happy...I wonder what those 25 things will be in a few years? Happiness is so completely changing and relative..

Me Publico Completa, Me espero Mejorable

Quizás sea inoportuno
o acaso delirante.
Soy de tantas maneras
como gente pretenda
nomás calificarme.
-Silvio Rodriguez- Tocando Fondo

En honor al rey de los trovadores que visitará nuestro país en el mes siguiente, empiezo este post con una de sus canciones mas queridas por mi.. Tocando Fondo
En realidad..no siento que estoy en una etapa de estar Tocando Fondo ahora mismo..Pero a diario recuerdo aquellas épocas donde sí lo hacía..
Gloriosamente..eso quedó atras..y ahora estoy en la etapa de acceptación y de..go with the flow..

Soy una persona que se complica mucho mas de lo que debería, y sobre-analiza hasta el pasar de un mosquito. Me encantan las sorpresas aunque nunca lo admita y soy romántica empedernida aunque me disfrace de fria y distante.
Me gusta encerrarme en mi mente y pensar...filosofar sobre el mundo, sobre las personas, sobre mi. Me gusta saber un poco de cada cosa..
Soy insegura, mal pensada, exagerada y ñoña, aunque ante la vida me vista de armadura.
Dudo de mis propias capacidades, pero me empujo a veces más allá de lo que yo misma espero.
Soy egocéntrica y celosa, compensando esto con una preocupación y atención masiva a los problemas de los demás en los que pueda ayudar.
Nunca estoy conforme con mi peso ni con mi cuerpo pero prefiero transmitir vanidad y sex appeal.

Por otro lado..Me considero buena amiga..he sabido dejar todo a un lado por estar ahi para mis amigos. Tengo buen oido para la musica y una percepción fenomenal del bien y del mal.
Amo a mis padres mas que a mi vida y me desvivo por verlos reir.
Amo la vida aunque la maldiga y respiro el rocío de la mañana siempre dando Gracias a Dios por permitirme otro día.
Soy amante de la noche, de las conversaciones fructíferas y de todo aquello que aumente mis conocimientos.
Soy Gabriela..un chowfan de virtudes y defectos.

Me declaro imperfecta..
me detesto probable.
Si uno no se desnuda
se transfigura en reto
todo lo desnudable

Good Riddance..

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why.
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.
-Green Day..Time of your Life

ANd as always..a song could not have said it better..and this is the most adequate one..

The affair has ended...No more exciting escapades around town.
No more stolen kisses or late nite messaging..
No more waking up with a warm body close by..

BUT
THis is all for the best and I am actually happy about it.
It was so much fun...and so great..but even great things must end.

What have we learned from all this?
-Que una aventura es mas bonita cuando no miramos el tiempo en el reloj.
-That there are still interesting people out there to meet..
-That my libido still works (lol)
-That my heart isnt closed for business..
-That sneaking around can be fun.
-And finally and most important...that I know now what I want and what I deserve.

So...was it worth it??? 100%. No therapy could have given me the thrills this whole affair bought to my soul. It's over..so what? Life moves on..and so will I.

Insomnia

Deep in the bosom of the gentle night
Is when I search for the light
Pick up my pen and start to write
I struggle, fight dark forces
In the clear moon light
Without fear... insomnia
I can't get no sleep

I don't think Faithless could have sung this any better..
Here I have a a little something in ode to that which has become my best friend and enemy all at once..I wrote this somewhere in the midst of 3 am on one of my sleepless nights...


Infinite cups of tea..endless sheep have come to fail
I have tried to sleep..everytime to no avail..
Sipping and counting in fits of spite..
I toss and turn in the unforgiving hands of night..

My tongue awaiting that forgiving caress
I taste the moon with no success..
I lay..patiently waiting for a quiet escape..
my eyes never resting..my mouth agape.

The hours crash by as waves on the sea..
the night carries on..always without me...

Instead of insomnia why cant it be a warm body next to me keeping me awake?
Why does it have to be this unforgiving RELUCTANCE to fall asleep..
At least it gives me a muse..an inspiration to write...